Like, hi.

Yey ho.

I often feel like writing a journal, but after picking which skin to use, how to start, and all other stuff, I usually end up not writing anything. Which pissed me off a little. There are so many things I want to write, so many things I want to let out. There are so many topics that I wanted to start to...I don't know, make it a little bit more lively here. But I rarely could.

Now, it's alright if we're talking about normal, casual, every day topic...but I'm like that with my emotions too. There are so many things I want to convey through my drawings, my writings, my face, etc. But it end up either looking nothing like what I had in mind, or only portrayed the slightest of what I'm feeling. And then I got confused thinking of what's wrong with me.

Example: right now. I'm listening to a nice little song from the singer that I like, not particularly swamped with homework, not in the middle of doing one of my part times. I have some free time, surprisingly. And now as I sit in front of my laptop, comfortably seated; with my sketchpad and drawing tools withing my reach...I just don't know what to do and wasn't sure whether I want to do something in particular.

Like...I really want to, but I can never let it out exactly as I wanted, and it made me reluctant to do it, and now I don't want to do it anymore for the moment. And then I'll regret spending my free time in vain. Because there are so much I want to do that I was in no mood to do when I have the time.

So yes...

And to think that I'm no longer a teenager...

By the way, you're free to ignore this little rant about my momentary indecisiveness. And, like, you don't even have to comment or anything. I love comments, but you don't have to, but I'll appreciate it if you do, but--

Nevermind. Ignore me.


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I can only draw human being.  So if it's not human (and you would really like me to draw it for you anyway) I'll draw its human version, haha.
OCs, anime characters, movie characters, your ID picture, you and your bff(s), my style drawing of a real person, superheroes, Disney princesses, anime-fication from a tin plate photograph, idk...as long as it's a human being I think I can handle it :'D
Check out my gallery if you wish to see my style and preferences. I can experiment if you'd like me to, but the closest it is to what I usually draw, the b ROLEPLAYING INFO!** You can still RP with me even if we had RPed before and our previous RP(s) didn't last very long. Just because we didn't make it that long that time doesn't mean we failed at RPing, and just because one (or both) of us wasn't interested that time doesn't mean that either (or both) of our characters weren't interesting! Every characters has their own charm ^_^ We can always try again, and again, and again with different characters for fun (and to practice to be better RPers ourselves)!
Name:
La...or Li...or Lala...or Lali.
Experience:
I've been roleplaying on this site for 4+ years.
Languages:
English.
* Characters using another languages [including foreign characters] will have their languages 'English-ized' for convenience sake, so there's no need to depend on Google Translator.
Favorite genres/setting:
------in no order
1. Historical [No, I don't write in medieval/victorianesque style...I only use normal